Hey Gang, It has been QUITE sometime since I have been here. To be honest I completely forgot about it, due to the fact that I have been stung by the busy bee....Haha Get it? a joke hah....Any who let me give you a run down of what has been going on : ~ I have been hurt ~ Found a new guy.... ~ Got Bangs. ~ Back in school for the fall. ~A lot of business and leadership positions but I am alright about it. ~ See time through time the friends I have lost, but I can still keep my head up. ~ As of now I will be another year older and wiser. ~ Sometimes I tend to be alone... Well thats about it...so let's get to the main subject of why I have posted this title. Well you see gang, I believe that we all have limits, and no I don't mean in our capabilities.. I am meaning in a sense of tolerance. See I am a nice and caring woman, but times people have taken me for granted and I do not like at all. Yet frustration is not my strong point.>>> Why frustrate me when I am trying to do my very best... I am just saying. Its not fair that if I were to frustrate you ..so why do on to me? Now I am not implying that I am the only victim, I speak for anyone out there.. who has those people who think anything goes with you..well tell them it doesn't because we all have limits. N.F Out

Hey Gang,
I have underwent an experience...that I have learned a lesson.
Life is all nothing but choices...You either learn from them or not.
I have Learned my lesson...I'm not a perfect person.
Adieu,
Neo F.

Hey Gang,
April is here...and coming to an end. <Sigh> I can feel the pressure of finals and getting all thats needed for classes. For those who feel that there plate is full. Then you know what I am feeling right now.

Too much pressure, I am begining to think, Can I handle this?

It wasn't till recently that I had suffered many physical effects due to stress.

I was begining to think how can I handle this...?

Well for you and for me..keep moving.

For you know:

<There is a light at the end of the tunnel

<The top of the ladder is in clear view

<Good things come in favor with hard work

<Keep Moving>

Adieu,

~NF Out

 

 

Hey Gang,

Yes I know another delay and I must say I am grateful for you reading this now. Just the usual is oing on through my life < school and social wise> but I do have a few changes:

Well, recently I have found out that my body is not how it should be...

Honestly, I dont like changes at all, well to be more exact I dont handle them well and sometimes that makes me a bit odd. I wrote myself a letter and it consists of the very detailed changes I am overcoming and what I am basically looking for.

I am deciding not to post my changes on here as it would defy my character being and make my very readers become bias of me and what I stand for.

Then again, you may have several thoughts circuling as of now... Nonetheless we are of free thinkiers so by all means.

<Sigh> my life is at a point where I am not sure what to do, who to turn to, how to prepare for whats to come. In general I would want to establish life in prep so I can be ready for any outcome...this is the reasons why I dont handle change well.

I often take my life as if I am composing a song...each beat and flow of the melody has to be right. The pitch and key and feel must be carefully put together and planned...and thats what it takes to make a melody... but what do you do when your melody is disturbed?

by one missed key

by one wrong pitch set

by lack of prep...

what do you do?

Adieu,

N.F Out

 

Hey Gang, Well life sure has a way of smacking you in the face. I must say March has brought on me so much stuff, I was beginning to think was this worth it...? ~Sigh~ Here is what I mean: >Classes are coming into swing. >Lost another set of friends. >It was at a point I thought that I was fighting a losing battle. >A close friend is undergoing the things I have went through. >My other half...was questioning us. You see? Thats enough issues for the year that I had in one month. All these issues, I feel that could have been avoided if it was handled a bit different. Different how? *Points to title of blog*: >I didnt have to lose friends if they asked why I feel this way. >I wouldnt have felt I was fight a losing battle if you asked me why do I keep fighting. >My close friend wouldnt have felt alone like I was, if she asked me how to keep going. >My other half just asked the wrong questions... Sometimes I feel that things can be alot better if they took the time to ask me what did I see, but instead they lead on by assumptions. I ask you...so ask me. I Bid Adieu, Neo Freudian

Hey Gang,

Its that time again for me to update on what has been going on in my life...

But First.. I would like to go back into time < >>>

When I first started this blog , I use to HOPE that people will see my blog, comment,and possibliy send this to others.

Then in due time, I have recieved two comments, which made me feel overjoyed but it was not me... I stareted to find the main reason why I do post in this blog not for to gain popularity points, but to remind myself how much I have grown in the matter of a few months.

Now I am not posting blogs for all to see ..I am posting for me to never forget:

How I am today// How I got here// How much of a difference I can make each day.

BUT for thoes out there that may be reading my blog..I am not telling you to stop please by all means I am eagered to find others who may feel or understand where I come from.

Okay.. Enough of that History Break lets get back to updates and meaning of my title..

Updates:

<I have lost some but gain more.
<My love life has been reformed and going on 2 months.
<It only takes ONE to make a difference.
<I have became a Support Angel.
<Which made me realize how much stronger I am.
<I am not afraid of what I thought could harm me but could only motivate me more to reaching out.
< The OWL Club has lost a member <finally...>
<Sometimes life has it own way to show you that everthing happens for a reason,so you just have to let it go on its own..

Meaning of the Title:
I honestly did not have a direct explanation to this title, it was a mere statement. Its like for me to send out a message to all thoes out there who has time to judge others, to break down the will power and purpose of others, who feeds off of negativity just to get feel happy about themselves... I want to tell them I want you who may be undergoing this as well> Tell Them < HERE I AM ... still standing>

I Bid Adieu,
~Neo Freudian Out

Hey Gang, Yes I am here and I apologize for not posting faithfully like I should. Anyways before I get into the meaning of my title, let me post some minor updates: ~ I am in a relationship <3
~My winter break HAS refreshed me physically,emotionally,and mentally.
~ I have finalized my 2010 schedule.
~ Its 2010!!! Happy New Year.
~I got a new hair style.
~Last night, I painted my nails blue :)

So there you have it my updates. Now onto the title... Have you ever... had a moment in your life where you should of, could of, or would of done something but did not? Well Gang that is what is happening to me. See I have come to terms that I am not as determined as I was when it came to being fit , losing weight, and keeping a constant schedule. I had tough times and it has lead me off track . Well now not anymore. I have found peace within myself, my soul to do what I am destined to do. This year and for many years to come I will fulfill my purpose<3 and if I ever fall of track again, I will simply get back on. To you out there if you see yourself falling off time and time again ... get back on and do what you were destined to do .. because you can !

Adieu Neo F.

Hey Gang,

*SIgh*

Alot has been going on and as always I have to post it on here haha.

But .. I do not speak about the situation first hand. I speak upon it as a learning  tool.  Our mind... is capable of things we can not imagine and  sometimes I wonder... how powerful is it?

I have been told that the mind is a very powerful organ. Which I am certain it is since it is the main source of our self being. It holds our deepest secrets and helps us through our most painful endeavors. Honestly, if that were characteristics of a person... they would have to be powerful indeed.

I feel like my thoughts, replayed events, untold or never been done situations have made the woman I am today.

Because

My thoughts became stories.

Replayed events became another one's journey

Untold or never be done situations  became my ways of living.

And all it took

Was my mind...

Take a moment and think about it .. Have Deja Vu hit you ?

Adieu,

Neofreudian

Hey Gang,

I know it has been foreve since I have been here. I must tell you, life has not been easy ... I mean it was at the point where going to classes was like my only sanctuary of peace. So besides that I figured I needed to go back on my blogs since it has been a while. I know what you are thinking... what is up with the title? Well here it goes;

As before I was in a crush with one fellow

and his name started with a J ...

Recently

I have a crush with a few guys ..

and guess what ?

They all start with the letter J ...

I am thinking to myself...How out there is that. But that is how love spills ...

you don't know how destiny flows to you when you least expect it.

Anywho there is one J fellow that has caught my eye, but it needs more time. Sometimes you want to have the answer for everything and it does not work out that way.

Stay Beautiful,

~Neo Out~

Hey Gang,

I know it has been a while since we have spoken. So let me take this time to fill you in:

1.) School in session again.

2.) I have went to a few parties ,and it's all good.

3.) I am maintaining a more than active( on my account) exercise schedule.

4.) I am becoming more aware of who is real and who is not.

5.) My memory has tooken a down fall just a bit.

6.) More guys are noticing me.

7.) Tomorrow DOES bring brighter days...

8.) I am an honorable member of the OWLS CLUB.

9.) Life has many chances coming at you all at once.

10) Society does not make you , you make society.

So there you have it... That is pretty much what is going on in my life and I am enjoying it much. I hope you are enjoying your life and if you not right now, then go get a drink of juice or think about something pleasant. Those 2 things makes a person happy. Till then < whenever that will be> Let. Life. Live.

Adieu,

S.